What’s Blocking You?

photo by Heidi J., photo manipulation by R. Malic Apparently, I brood too much than I actually am aware of

photo by Heidi J., photo manipulation by R. Malic
Apparently, I brood too much than I actually am aware of.

Right now, an indefinable entity has blocked my thoughts; something inexplicable that no words can describe it. I try to grasp its existence; its heaviness fills me with wariness. It drives me insane. After a few moments, I came to realize that it doesn’t really obstruct my thoughts, per se, because I am still able to write and type from my head. This mental block hinders more than it inhibits me from producing something worthwhile to read. It makes it difficult to release my creativity as it tries to stop me from doing what I do best.

From this point on, I will do my best not to succumb to this fear. I do not want to show up next time without a well-made output or present a product made out of force. But that is the issue. How can I create routinely something when writing motivation and inspiration often come out spontaneously? I am doing it right now – I write without a rigid and specific cause or aim. Just write. No thoughts pulled back. No ideas to be disturbed. Every single word is flowing out as I write this draft. I picture a thread of words being spindled into refinery. These golden thoughts will shine in the sun with its radiance reflected and cast upon the reader’s eyes.

If I give in to perfection, there will be no room for creativity as everything becomes contrived, confined and inhibited. A breath of fresh air is all I need! Move, move, MOVE! Push that critic past the cliff and let him fall without regard into oblivion. Break his soul sucking incantation before he breaks me down. Ride those imaginary wheels and fly into the skies, wind brushing past my face and hair. I am enjoying this ride while regurgitating this mental asphyxiation.

But then… halt! I thought I finally got rid of it! I hushed it out, didn’t I? But here it comes again peeping and booing like a phantom in the night. Punch it in the face! Consciously empower myself to defeat it! These monsters in my head are there because I am facing a new level of discomfort. Why can’t these thoughts let me act the way I do? I certainly won’t lie in bed again and make it as an excuse. I cannot think anything, right? Why not attack it? Have I noticed that I made it to the fourth paragraph? What is this inner critic still babbling about?

I hope I learned my lesson. It is hard and unnerving when I try to grasp what is supposed to be the right words or the right style. Although it seems counterintuitive, it helps to write without limits. Great things happen without victimizing one’s self from an obviously temporary slump (in my case, I need little doses of neuroses). I must take that first step, and immediately follow it with one more, slowly but surely. Then, I can go places – without aim or direction, yet enamored by action, movement, and sudden development.

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Roland Andre Malic is a creative writer and blogger who took writing and speech courses in TalkShop, under the guidance of Sheila Viesca, CEO and Director of Communication. Still finding out his niche in life, he is on the way to self-discovery by traversing creative ventures, a step at a time, which include writing and blogging. He also finds joy in watching mind-boggling films, reading about art and history, and exploring musicians and artists from eclectic genres.

Representing Ourselves in a World of Mindless Chatter Boxes

The rabbit knows it... so should you.

The rabbit knows it… so should you.

It alarms me how today’s generation has perpetuated ignorance and close mindedness in social media and other online platforms despite the abundance of information in the internet. I observe that the power given to them for free expression is used recklessly instead of responsibly, often spawning really tasteless jokes and memes, wasteful comment wars, and display of brutal insensitivity. Is it true that this generation has become dumb when it comes to respect and judgment? It is time for us to be reminded that open-mindedness must be raised to a higher bar.

Over time, internet use has increased rapidly, and that means that most of today’s activities rely on that virtual universe. People can both acquire and share information about almost every topic in the planet through the internet. Maybe someone from years ago thought of building communities and conversations and of creating forums which have now evolved into social media websites.

The “comment” box has become a staple in almost every social media website. It does not say which kind of comment we have to put. It encourages us to speak – and it is truly effective. People now automatically say what is on their minds without filtering them. People throw negative comments, make derogatory and prejudiced accusations, and the use of swear words often censored on TV has become widespread. It is as if everyone has to talk and criticize all the time.

The anonymity of our internet persona adds to the kick that we get from being overtly opinionated. When we comment online and someone disagrees, there is a marginal possibility that someone might attack us face-to-face upon reading the comment. Although we can be a victim of social media bullying, we can simply get away with the issue by staying offline for weeks (however hard it is for others). With the easy spread of information through the internet, it does not take great effort to create a thread of comments that are both criticizing and self-righteous. Even swear words can alternatively be spelled and their essence is not censored immediately.

On the other hand, using the internet does not mean that we always have to put cotton candy and rainbow-like topics. We can still have fun and find entertainment without having to laugh at other people’s choices. Also, we can still be serious yet avoid hurtful and derogatory statements. It is up to us to read more information and find the right set of words to use before making comments. In other words, think before typing and pressing enter.

The internet is invented as an alternative means for communication and through the years, it has proven to be highly efficient in delivering messages in various formats – from text, to photo, to recorded video, and live streaming. IN a short time, the internet has become an alternate universe of various languages and conversations, often containing topics from the non-virtual universe we live in. The words we put online may make sense or contain truth to a certain extent, but words are empowering and thought-provoking. They send many signals and cause volatile emotions to uproar. Also, words can equally cause peace and harmony. Even though freedom is given to us, it does not give us license to spread hate. In the first place, the internet’s primary purpose is to connect with other people and it defeats this purpose if we bash each other. In other words, as a precaution, we should refrain from using the comment box without educating and informing ourselves first.

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Roland Andre Malic is a creative writer and blogger who took writing and speech courses in TalkShop, under the guidance of Sheila Viesca, CEO and Director of Communication. Still finding out his niche in life, he is on the way to self-discovery by traversing creative ventures, a step at a time, which include writing and blogging. He also finds joy in watching mind-boggling films, reading about art and history, and exploring musicians and artists from eclectic genres.

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Albercht
G-Tech 0.4 on paper

Albercht is a single rich old man always wearing insane fashion of fur. He carries a golden cane to support his limping right leg while sporting an emerald and gold ring that seems to have been passed on from generation to generation. Despite his highly maintained grooming, he likes to keep his hair unbrushed. He is a libertine in the most modern ways, holding private parties with utmost lavishness and extravagance. He never eats food with his hands and always demands the finest set of silverware. He has diamonds imported to serve as board game pawns.

Better toTake a Break than to Break Down

Whenever I get annoyed, I draw images like this. Quite productive, isn't it?

Whenever I get annoyed, I draw images like this. Quite productive, isn’t it?

I was on the edge of pulling my hair out of frustration to create an article. It had been a week since this assignment was given to me and I have not yet finished a thing. Since I had managed to make four articles a week on average, I challenged my self to make six to eight articles these two weeks. Little I did know that I had put on so much pressure on myself. This is so because I seem to be off beat from my usual creative flow.

Earlier the previous week, I set a private space and time for myself and my assignments. I had a good routine – I did my free writing activity first before entertaining interruptions and then I started to work. This week was different though, I gave in to these interruptions out of not wanting to be pressured. Then it came, the weekend with so much regret and irritation for not producing one thing. I decided to put it off until the muse of creativity granted me inspiration. I waited for everything to run smoothly and naturally.

To break the pressure, I let myself be distracted by doing something else. I continued and finished a drawing that I left uncared for for two weeks. The pencil drawing the week before is now outlined in ink. Since it was Halloween, I also watched a few horror flicks while munching on junk food. Out of curiosity, I tried to listen to an internet guided meditation on astral projection (almost to no avail). I even worked out to release some endorphins. Lastly, for the first time after so many weeks of being busy and exhausted, I had an in-depth and important chat with my family,

I am glad to put off the pressure. It feels good that a few of the distractions made me come back and believe that I can push through. Before I let it take over me, I halted it. Now, I am thankful to produce something, albeit unrelated to my assignment. But then, I produced something, didn’t I?

Importance of Not Knowing

Not knowing makes you yearn for possibilities. Some possibilities might make you anxious but others make you excited. It is up to us which uncertainties would drive our lives. It is up to us which ones to harness and which ones to drag us. We may never know but we are the only ones who could get our minds to project into it.

I think it is unfair to judge opportunities according to stability. I mean, isn’t it that life is unstable as it is? I was taught with skills that I would use for the future challenges and people tell me that it is not going to be stable. I want to be pushed to the limits and I want to be surrounded by people who has drive. I must take opportunities wisely for I have seen where I am going to be.

So Much Time Spent In My Head

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Isn’t it irritating if you are a natural thinker and you spend so much time in your head to the point that you have conversations entirely to yourself? Was I completely used to being a loner that I have tons of imaginary conversations that run entirely on loop or in perpetuity that sometimes when I sit on a very lengthy commute, tired commuters resting from a long stressful day would find me musing and silently laughing at myself, sometimes coupling it with words that are absolutely and ridiculously random without understanding the context? Is is worth it to be a talker than to be a thinker?

No offense made, okay, maybe slightly. I think that we must not judge people because we do not know what they have gone through for each of us do not share the same kind of circumstances. However, it is unfair that a lump sum of similar attitudes and behavior make up what is to be acceptable and normal and right. Being a thinker and not a talker had made me keener and more filtered and intelligent in making decisions and statements but without the conversationalist side of it, these thoughts would amount to nothing.

Which led me into the idea of having to carry a notebook around just to write my thoughts in. BUT, I often go into my mind wanderings on situations which wouldn’t make me comfortable to write. For example, in cramped public utility vehicles it is awkward for me to reach in my bag and create a space for my arms to move while writing because public vehicles are meant for maximum space usage which requires to pack people as much as possible, especially in overly populated city called Manila.

Another instance is when I get into my daydreaming states. An overly self-identified INFP (an MBTI personality category), I have the tendency to suffer long bouts of escapism through imagination. Long walks would make me fancy myself in a thriller movie with that Mission Impossible like theme song on the background coupled with measured confident strides wishing for a black trench coat that moves against the imaginary wind. I often would say lines and conversations in my head with other co-actors.

Also, when I lay in my bed and all these fucked up situations and over thinking plagues me, I get lazy to sit up and write. It seems as if there is an appropriate outlet for certain kinds of thoughts and emotions and I was not really taught to express myself freely growing up. It is exhausting and annoying.

Is it worth it to stay like this? Sometimes, yes, if I grew up in an environment friendly to the thinker types. People who do not ridicule the gentle and the tacit male. However, the gentle, sensitive males are often pushed outside the cool zone being called names even by the ones who must have given them support, say, people close to home. I know that there is an environment out there which can make people like me foster and grow. This is not it. Maybe then I will be more forgiving and accepting to myself. So, yeah, as of now, I say that I am uncomfortable being an thinker but there are a lot of opportunities out there, and it is a long worthwhile search.

The Hunger Games: Catching Fire (2013): An Amateur’s Reaction

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The Hunger Games: Catching Fire (2013)

Directed by: Francis Lawrence

Written by:  Simon Beaufoy, Michael Arndt, based on the novel “Catching Fire” by Suzanne Collins

Starring Jennifer Lawrence, Josh Hutcherson, Liam Hemsworth

The primary reason that books are converted into film is the amount of material that may stirr interest on potential audience. Add the fact that fans of the book will come rushing to movie theaters to experience an audio-visual translation of their beloved text and form tons of criticism afterwards.

As a fan of the Hunger Games Trilogy, with a slighter preference on the second book compared to the other two, I was impressed in the amount of improvement and grandeur employed in this film adaptation compared to the first in the series (although I enjoyed it too).

The most noticable improvement is the non-shaky camera which did not distract us from the scenes and makes us appreciate adn focus more on the epic aspect of adventure in the movie. Second is how close to faithful it is to the book, with some added extras to make it understandable to non-readers without altering greater chunks of the film. It managed to orchestrate details to relate the book’s universe to both readers and non-readers alike. Another point that made it a great interpretation is the expreiencial translation of it. The arena, the districts, and the Capitol are directly pulled out of my mind because of how close the construction of it all compared to how I imagined it while reading the book.

Of course, there were minor misses, like how some aspects of characters slightly changed; for instance, they downplayed Johanna’s annoyance towards Katniss and Finnick’s naturally flirtatious air is slightly not felt. Also, while Jennifer Lawrence’s playing the lead role of Katniss Everdeen is superbly fit for her and her acting, at rare moments, I find her cringes a little bit too much. Most of the cast, especially Josh Hutcherson and Liam Hemsworth (playing Katniss’ love interests, Peeta Mellark and Gale Hawthorne, respectively), will yet save their acting prowesses to make it full bloom in the two-part film adaptation in the third book, Mockingjay, which will be something I will be looking forward to.

I recommend that you read Catching Fire first before heading towardsthe cinemas. However, due to the clean storytelling of this film, lazy readers may not need to read. It is one of the best interpretations of books I have read, and more…